I have a hit a blank slate lately with my blog. Which is pathetic since I have only been blogging for a few months. Perhaps its not for me? But then again I have felt frustrated with the blogging/twitter world lately. It's like you need to impress certain people, or try to fit in with a "clique"..and I'm just tired of it. I do appreciate the amazing women that I have gotten the chance to know. Some of them seem real and genuine, while others just seem rude and judgmental. So why am I going out of my way to try to "impress" other bloggers? It's like being in high school again..and no thanks I'd rather not go back to that time in my life. So for now I will focus on positive bloggers and tweets. They are the ones who inspired me to blog. Their stories and feelings are real and it's inspiring. So thank you.
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I deleted a previous post that I wrote last week about working in an inner city neighborhood school. My husband brought to my attention that it may have been a little harsh. Which it may have been. But it's truly how I feel. It is a culture shock for me each and everyday. It's hard to remain positive and upbeat, even for me. I keep telling myself, "just get in a few years of experience and then you can change districts". But when you're competing with thousands of other applications for one position in a suburban school, it's tough. I need to start making friends in higher places. It's all about who you know right? Also the commute has been draining. I really need to find another sitter closer for S.
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S has officially started walking. Not for long periods of time, but at least 10 steps at once. She has also started throwing little hissy fits when I take something away from her. Like my glasses when she yanks them off my face..or my iphone. Seriously? What has become of my little angelic child? She actually knows how to press the button on my iphone now. Quite the techy. Also, we are almost completely off formula. We are down to 2 ounces of formula and 4 ounces of whole milk. I don't plan on stopping bottles either for at least a bit, I enjoy that snuggle time way too much. And i'm in no hurry for her to grow up.
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DST and I have a love/hate relationship. I love that it gets lighter earlier, but then I hate that it gets dark so early. I am NOT a morning person at all, I could sleep till noon everyday if I could. I literally need an alarm clock that drags me out of bed and into the shower. Mornings in our house are chaotic. Why? Because i'm always running late. The number of yellow lights I run in the morning is insane. Note to self - start waking up earlier or you may get fired.
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Happy Tuesday...which is like Wednesday for me because we have Friday off. Hallelujah. Thanks Vets!
6 comments:
I LOVE YA QUINNIE! Don't ever change who you are... you are delightful :)
I understand your blogging frustration but just remember that you've got a great blog here! Your humor and honesty is appreciated to people that read, there are so many people pleasing, unauthentic blogs out there now it almost feels like you have to conform. I love it, I feel like I can relate and I'm not alone in my opinions sometimes. To me, that's what blogging is about. Not feeling like you're the only crazy one! But yes, I do see the HS side of it and I just laugh it off. Unbelievable the way grown women can act sometimes. To focusing on the positive!
.. Umm.. What PattyAnn said. Exactly. We all go through those same feelings. I've found stepping away for a bit is truly refreshing. And those judgmental bitches? Well.. well. You know. Just keep it real, sistah. After all, I know how awesome you are in real life and your blog is a perfect representation of that!
I completely agree with PattyAnn and Ashley Paige. I think you have a great blog here. Just stick with blogging about what you love and whats important to you. You'll find very quickly that the judgies don't matter :)
Quinn- I second/third...whatever- the same thing that everyone before me has said! You are an awesome blogger and I swear next time I'm visiting my alma mater (Villanova) I am tracking you down because you seem like such an incredibly cool chic who I could throw a few drinks back with! Don't let peep's petty crap stop you from being awesome! I'm new to the blogosphere too and I feel the same way you do, its hard but I think that the cool people make it worth it! :)
Just keep writing...that's what usually gets me out of my funk and you know...turn off twitter. Sometimes Twitter isn't such a great place to be I've discovered :)
I feel you on the tantrums. My little guy has been throwing himself on the ground lately and although I find it slightly humorous, I shudder at the thought of what might come next! Oh what happen to the angelic baby days? I think independence has gone to his head!
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